Ya! it's been long time never post anything on. i missed this time for sure. miss all the words spread like this page just only for me and my best friend. well, i'll start with my life . while i left all the problem behind and since i took that long break semester i just kept my day at home and spread all cv to company that i knew. i expect that they would call me and asked me to join in. god, never sleep while i sleep over without asked him what should i do. seriously!!! he did first before i woke up and say Thank you for everything that he gave, it's just amazing!

they really called me!!! i didn't care for what i have heard! i was just excited for that, i was preparing for the interview but in the middle my parents were not allow me attend that interview. Yess, feel so down coz i have to left it. but, i won't stop to find out !!the whole day and month i tried to figure it out what's going on? one day i heard that my big family didn't put trust so much for what i'm going to do. my spirit was going down inside that time. but i was thinking that i have to survive for what i'm dreaming for, based on my cousin said " if you have that ability believe in yourself coz, sometimes something that seems so bad gonna bring you to something new and it will cost you high"

i tried to design something, i tried to open up what i have been learning on campus that time, started with corel! didn't know why corel! i bought a design book and learn what should i learn.

first job coming as a clergy! i think it's not a bad idea! work for god but my resposibility was not cleaning for church or even cooking for priest. my job was design!! design for new clothes and bring them into nice uniform. i was working full time and spent like 12 hours a day to do my brain storming! thanks god sent me a good friend like sister Gina who was helping me transfer my own idea to fabric .

that job done so well i got, yah.. cukup2 makan salary!

at least i tried! next! i have to survive. this time i sent out all my CV to any instition that i know, no matter what! i just tried and now i'm just waiting to the right time coming on.

who was the person behind my undertaking!

i was a bit upset with my big family since they put me a lil' bit trust, but this guy was coming like suddenly onto my life instead giving me support to move on. i was with him a couple years before we started everything on september 16th last year, we call ourselves as a best friend but sometime it's turning into something a lil' bit awkward best friend when we were just busy and in relationship when we were not! Love for us just like a feeling, feeling to be strong and feeling to support each other. he was more than best friend even if i can"t choose where should i put him into my life! I call him cicak as first time we met he called me sapi when all people rare to call me on that way.

a guy who was born in jakarta and spent his life in tanjungpinang and moving abroad for good. for sure this guy were never say give up for everything that he do. " at least i tried " that's the words that he always says to me. gosshh, how can i describe this guy to you all. i like him for the way he was. like when he knew what he wanted to do and how to put trust for something good in the future. he knew everything.